And I find Him.
Why Healing Isn’t Everything
Over the course of these seven years of illness, I’ve been prayed for and prayed over by countless people. I’ve seen medical doctors and homeopathic specialists. I’ve changed the way I eat and exercise … multiple times. I’ve made progress, and then I’ve regressed—taken five steps forward and four steps back. Because sometimes God says “no” or “not yet” or “only in part” so that we learn how to sit in silence a little longer, until our heart is on a first-name basis with surrender, and we go deeper with Jesus.
These aches and pains and frailties are a telescope to see distant glory up close. The God of the universe is near to the brokenhearted, and He lifts up those who are bowed down. And that nearness is my good. He says, “I see. I hear. I care. And I am with you. I have everything you need for this.”
Too Much and Not Enough
In every season of our lives, there comes a time when we feel that God has given us “too much,” and we’re “not enough.” We look at our circumstances and then at our resources—and we despair.
Why do You push me so far past my limits, Lord?
When I was young and healthy and had the world on a string, I envisioned a life of monumental and celebrated ministry. But on this side of weakness, I’ve been surprised by the joys of small and simple servanthood.
